Entry for November 14, 2006 No sunshine on a rainy day

Entry for November 14, 2006 No sunshine on a rainy day
This week started well, unfortunately they had to cancel Sunshine's Speech Therapy appt, not all the paperwork was complete, but now it is. He had diarrhea yesterday and was sent home sick today from daycare. Duck didn't get any sleep, it's hard to get to bed at 2:30, help me get Sunshine ready in the morning and then get back up at 8:30 and go pick him up. I had a doc appt today...my BP is high again 138/89. Another 24 hr collection. They must not understand the concept of how embarrassing it is to do that at work.
My boss has posted my position in the newspaper to find someone to fill in. She said that if this new person works out pt, the other lady may leave. I almost get the feeling that it may be to replace me all together. I try very hard to do everything that she wants, sometimes it's impossible. She waits until last minute to give me stuff or tells me to do something's two different ways, and I have to decipher how she wants it done. Most of the time I can get it, but other times I give it to her to approve, she sends it to the customer and later realizes that it isn't exactly how she wanted. I'm just not a mind reader. I just continue to try and do my best. I can say, that I do leave there thinking that I put my best foot forward that day. She is very good with me as far as Sunshine being sick and the fact that I have to go to the doctor twice a week. I can only do things that I am shown though! I'm just fortunate to have a job. We'll see what happens. No use in worrying about something that I can't control. Everything happens for a reason.
I was going to go to a LLL meeting tonight and unfortunately I couldn't because of little man. He slept 3.5 hours. I didn't want to take him and be around all the pregnant woman and young children/babies if he really has a bug. He's the most important thing to me, but I'm still disappointed that it worked out like this. I really want to have the best shot at breast feeding MC, and I do feel like I will need some guidance as my luck with Sunshine wasn't very good. This was the last meeting that I would've had the opportunity to go to before he was born. I will just do my best and do more research. K said that I can ask her anything, so if a question or issue arises, I'll ask her until I can attend the meeting perhaps in December. We'll see what happens.
Well I'm being drug away by a 2 yr old....good night
Katy