Results and a reflection...

Okay so I'll start with the results...I broke down and went to the doc today. I have what is called Vertigo. I go through spells of dizzyness, some worse than others. I'm feeling a bit better after taking the meds she gave me the only problem is that I can't drive on them and they make me sleepy. On the other note...she said that I need to refrain from making sudden movements. YEAH RIGHT!!! I live with two toddlers and work at a fast food restaurant. She gave me a pass for today and if I'm not feeling great I'll have to get another for tomorrow. My speech is still slurred and when I try to move or refocus on something my eyes will bounce and try to stop and focus. I did make it to the meeting tonight, about half way through I started to feel a bit better but standing and walking to the car was well...tough. It's crazy, it takes me two or three times as long to do simple tasks because I have to concentrate so hard on trying to stay focused and not fall. I hope that the medicine works, I really don't like feeling like this. On a side note I've gotten a month's worth of sleep in the past three days. I'm so tired of being so tired.

I read another's blog today and though it was a good idea to give a reflection over the past decade...let me see if I can remember that far back.

2000 - Moved out of my apartment after I bought my first house, stopped using drugs, fell in love with my furture husband. Oh and best of all I made the step to reunite with my father.

2001 - Very boring year, I left fastfood for a desk job which I loved and then at the end of the year we had 9/11.

2002 - In feb I was dian. with a heart condition, actually 3. I turned 21, other than that..noting significant.

2003 - Went through heart surgery in April, got married in June, buried Duck's Dad in August, found out we were pregnant the day we buried him, buried his uncle in Sept, buried Samantha and Amanda on the same day in Dec. Overall it was a life and death year. Then I was laid off in Dec.

2004 - Duck made 9,000 in Jan selling cars :). I found a job that I didn't care for a great deal in Feb. Sunshine was born in April, diagn. with Asthma in Oct. He took up most of our year.

2005 - Was called back to R&K, bought new house in Sept, Duck moved in and we followed in Oct. Had a rough start, but we were making it.

2006 - Started working at the pallet company, Sunshine was hospitalized for a week after a long stint of being sick and I was pregnant again for the second time a month later, and was delivered in November.

2007 - I had to quit working and become a stay at home mom due to finances and Sunshine being diagnoised with Autism and needing special education services. We started to think about becoming more self sufficient and frugal. Grew as a family.

2008 - I started studying the bible, I never realized how much was in there nor the depth of it. Smiley was hospitalized for asthma at a month old. Duck got laid off from his job and I went back to work part time. I was able to run a business for 7 months successfully until the economy dropped. We also put in a windmill.

2009 - A rocky year, Duck is in school, Sunshine is home in school. I'm still working....grrr. It's been a long year but it is over. Nothing significant.

Well it took me two hours to get to 2009 last night, so I'll post this and start a new one.

K

What is going on???

For the past two days I've felt like crap. It started yesterday morning before dad was suppose to be up here, I felt so naueous that I literally had to lay down. Then an onslaught of other symptons started showing up. Let just say, I make frequent potty visits. I just wish I'd throw up already so I can get the junk out and get better. I'm now so dizzy that it is taking a consciencous effort to stay sitting up and not leaning. I cerainly hope this passes tonight, there is no way I can work like this. If I'm not better in the morning I will have to go into the doc, I can't function very well like this.

Gotta go.
me.

wanna read something disappointing???

http://www.rd.com/make-it-matter-make-a-difference/slideshow-13-things-your-childs-teacher-wont-tell-you/article165082-12.html#slide

Oh...my! If teachers really hate their job that much..find another one. Infact, let's trade places. The only positive statements that I found was the one about turing off kids texting abilities during school hours....great idea...why not limit it anyway..a little more often than just during school hours. And the one about children telling everyone your family secrets...how very true. Other than that it is just teachers complaining about their jobs...the afterall, chose to be teachers. Change jobs or stop complaining...I hear a lot of local fast food joints are hiring...how does 7.25 per hour sound vs the 51,000 per year you are making now?

Okay....that was annoying...

Got a few things done...

I've started a new blanket...this one is different, I'm doing it:

Darker baby Blue row
darker baby blue row
darker baby blue row
multi color row
burgandy row
burgandy row
burgandy row
multi color row
brown row (chocolate)
brown row
brown row
multi color row
hunter green row
hunter green row
hunter green row
multi color row
and repeat until finished....

It looks really nice, I will keep this up in the future as opposed to my same old pattern although I like them both.

I bought new curtains for the livingroom and will move our bedroom curtains to the boys room and put new ones in ours...they are redish and not really a boyish color. I'm looking forward to getting them up until I can sew new ones for the boys.

I'm pretty sure at this point that I'm going to have to break down and see the doc about my shoulder....it is really starting to hurt again, and pop everytime I move it. I need to work on the biggest loser thing for work...that's less than a week away.

I also want to start getting my seed order ready for my spring garden. I also need to find some quality compost. Well that's something that I will think about doing...I also read that roma tomatoes are amongst the best for the fact that they have a low water content, which would be perfect for the sauces that I like to make and the canned tomatoes and salsa.

Okay gotta run, want to get some laundry folded before bed...toddles.
Me.

Good thing....

Duck wasn't awake to see that...Mandee just pulled two keys off my laptop trying to jump up on my lap. Grrrr. Silly girl! She is still trying to get used to us and finally using her box again..thank GOD. She decided that she didn't want to climb the stairs anymore so we moved it down stairs. I will say that the pine litter is really nice, you NEVER smell the cat dropping. My fott is still killing me from when I stepped on the megablock the other day..ouch..then lastnight I got something stuck in my eye and I think I now have it infected. It was oozing and pussing last night...I know TMI. I nearly overslept this morning, apparently no one heard my alarm which has been going off for over an hour. I must have been really tired. Smiley slept on the top bunk last night, he didn't wake up until I asked Duck where the baby was, he must have heard me. I work until 4 today which is a much different shift for me, but I'm really looking forward to it. I do like working Thursdays with the acception of the few bad apples that try to spoil it for everyone it usually makes for a really nice day. I certainly hope that today is no different. I kinda think that it will be busy since people are going to be out shopping for the secular holiday. I had a long discussion with my dad about this holiday. The sad thing is that he agrees with me except for the fact that he thinks no matter what we should celebrate Jesus Christ's birthday, I gotta figure out how to show him that the bible doesn't approve. He knows that it is a false god worship day (the sun god) but he says that it is too hard to changes since everyone else does it. He seemed kinda peeved that we don't celebrate. In due time he'll understand, even if it takes me to the end of this system to show him. Well I need to scoot, I have to get ready for work...toodles!

What happens when....

you change a blind mans living room around? Okay..so we've all heard that joke before, but what happens when you move an autistic kids room around? Today was rough to say the least. Sunshine was so beside himself, it has been unreal. I'm praying we don't end up with a seizure. Then not thinking he wouldn't let Smiley on the top bunk (which is Sunshine's bed) to play I removed all Sunshine's Buzz Lightyear bedding and put them on the bottom bunk and move the Cars bedding to the top. I was trying to prove a point at the end of my wits, it was a split second decision. Why didn't I just throw myself to the lions? Right now he is not allowed upstairs unless we are up there since they can't play nice, they can't play up there. We'll let them play downstairs and we will work on letting them go back up there later. We have rearranged the upstairs, I'm washing the 2 load of dishes, I hate the new dishwasher and can't wait to get our tax check, then I can buy a new one. Today has been short, rough and trying...but as a mother you will have those days.

I've gotta run, it's time to change the clothes over and wipe down the kitchen.

Toodles.
Me.

Vaccine...

So after talking to one of the people at work, she was contact multiple times by the school in regards to getting her 6 yr old girl vaccinated with the H1N1 shot. I found it interesting that the schools are harrassing parents to get this shots for their children, I would not have put up with it at all..thank goodness I kept Sunshine home this year. I read at a local new station that they have recalled 800,000 doses of the vaccine for children. Siting that they believe they aren't even potent enough to protect children from the virus. SO let's look at they cycle here...child unwillingly gets stuck with a needle, full of a concoxation that is not believe won't prevent them from getting sick, they still run the risk of getting sick due to the vaccine, get stuck again since most kids need two shots and still wind up sick with the flu. HUM...where is the logic here? None the fact that it hasn't been tested enough. The most alarming fact of this virus is the range of people that it is attacking, and most that it is very deadly for pregnant woman. All the same...I'm really glad that I don't have to worry about my children who are being presurred into getting this vaccine.

I'm off to rearrange my upstairs. I want to get the boys new special beds made tonight and on top of what happened yesterday I'm ready to get my home clean and NOT leave. We got stranded in the local town about 25 minutes away. We were stuck in our cold car with only blankets and waiting for 30 min for a wonderful brother from the Hall to come and rescue us. He spent most of the evening with us, we had to stop 2 times to charge the car battery enough to just get us home. The alternater is going out....and the worst part is that a remanufactured one is 125.00 OUCH. We will pull one off the parts car and replace it at tax time. We are going to be putting 15-20 fuel cells in it and try to run it soley off of water...I wanted to get it hooked up for solar/electric but Duck wants to try the cells first since we'll have to pull parts off for the electic anyhow.

The semester ended today, we'll get him set up for classes for next semester today. He'll be set up for 12-15 hrs this time. He should graduate next summer. I'm not sure if he is going to transfer his credits over but I can't wait for him to get a job. I long for the time when I can aux pioneer and pioneer fulltime. I've been going out a lot more recently and the joy it brings me is amazing. Well I need to get working on the boys room, I'm working a lot tomorrow and won't be able to do anything else.

Katy

It's been a while...

Brown recluse...I think that's how you spell it. I'm nearly certain that I found one in my house the other morning. I killed it and in the care of trying to identify it it got lose and squished all over my work shoes. We are working on the house. Dad is going to come up, I can't wait. I haven't seen him in so long.
Last night when we were writing Duck's final speech we decided to write his eulogy. It is a way to have fun with it and hopefully it will have the shock and awe that the teacher thinks it will have. It was something! Life has been busy and not a lot has gotten accomplished around the house...so it's time to get up and get it done!

me.

A week of tantrums, little sleep and insanity...

It has been rough at work for a while. I'm doing as best as I can at work. I would have never thought it would be possible for a 40 year old to throw a bigger tantrum than my two year old...but I saw it with my own eyes. All in all it was hilarious. I need to remember that it isn' nice to laugh in people's faces when they are acting stupid. I'm try to work on that...it has always been a weakness that I've had. We are trying to work on getting all of our policies in line, I know that while every restaurant can do it, I also know that they don't. So what is the harm in working on it? It is a work in progress, not something that can get changed in one day, one lunch or 3 hours. Enough said...it was a funny day...and worse than that some people have nothing better to do with their lives than to try to make other people misearable. How sad for them that they feel they need to do such things.

The assembly today was rough to say the least. Duck started getting very nauseous, I think it was a mixture of heartburn, heat and greasy breakfast. Poor guy! Sunshine was beside himself, he has actually started sniffing his food which indicates that he thinks I'm hiding medicine, which means that he is sick or getting sick. He has had two breathing treatments tonight so....it seems he needs to go into the doc. Smiley on the other hand has moved from terrible twos to totally terrible three's. His attitude needs to be put into check. He's learning so much and he's so adorable, but I can't let him get away with everything...he'll start walking all over me if that happens. All in all he's a bright young boy.

I'm thinking about asking for a few days off of work. I need to get some things done when Duck is on break. I also need to remember to find out if Sunshine has a skin condition that I can't even spell. If so I'm needing to find him a particular soap.

Okay, well I've got a lot to get done tomorrow, so I need to get off of here and get some rest.

Katy

Kicking myself in the butt.

So Today I was suppose to be at work at 4 and I never heard the alarm go off. I feel awful, I can't believe this happened, I'm so mad at myself. I got up a little after 6:30 and called in first thing praying that someone was reached, mortified at the amount of trouble I'm in. CRAP. I can't believe this. There aren't enough words to say how sorry I am, this is not my character and I can't believe this happened. DARN IT. So I'm picking up one of the managers shifts that came in early today to help cover. I haven't been in yet to see the extent of the damage that I created nor the amount of trouble I'm in. Considering I don't have a running vehicle when Duck takes his to school. I'm beside myself...I laid back down to try to calm my very racing heart back down after I called in this morning and laid there for about an hour before I finally dosed back off. This is not going to be good, but I will accept any dicipline given, I have no other choice, I made the mistake. I'm still really ticked at myself. GRRRRRRR.

Going to be another long week..

So the other day I found out that my theory about why everyone is mad at me is correct. I could really care less, I was doing my job and I'm quite frankly tired of feeling like I have to defend myself. The point was made to me that they felt it wasn't fair since they always joke inapproiately and this was the first time anything was done about it. Okay..he physically touched another employee inapproiately and nearly did it to another who would not have welcomed such an inapporiate gesture. So is this why it's quiet all the time? It is because they don't feel comfortable joking like that around me? HELLO!! This is work, not a bar. And this person made the choice to leave the job which is something that I found out today, it wasn't that he was fired, while I new they quit, I didn't know it was their decision. I am easy to get along with, I just want people to do their job, that's it! I was told today that my performace was appreicated and good, that I should keep it up. That was a boost.

The meeting was great tonight, I can't wait for the special assembly. I have no idea how I'm going to get Sunshine dressed for it, but I've gotta do something, I have to figure this out.

I almost looked up receipes for cat today. I may have no other choice but to build a large cage for Mandy if she doesn't quit peeing. This is getting so old I can't imagine going another couple of days like this. The very next time she will put in the bathroom at night and I don't know where during the day. We may just put a door on the laundry room and put her in there. I'm at a loss....I can't wait until she can go home...I'm sure that she would be happier there. She does come out when the boys are asleep and cuddle with me and let me pet her.

I'm going to bed, I have to be up early.

night,
me.