Entry for January 18, 2006 "Rejection for an innocent"

Entry for January 18, 2006 "Rejection for an innocent"
Early this morning...about 2:30 am I woke up to my little man coughing and well what it sounded like he was gasping for air and hoarse. I felt so sorry for him, then about 5 am, he started to scream and cry and then there was nothing. I got up to see if he was okay and his arms were frozen and he wasn't moving. I of course thought the worst at first, then I picked him up and he whined. I then laid him down in our bed so I could get him warm and have him closer to me. This is the 3rd night in a row that I have had little to no sleep with him crying in the night and coughing last night. I went to work and told them that I needed to get him to the doctor this morning in fear that it could be something horrible like pneumonia. So I called a few doctors to see if we could get him in today. Finally I got him an appt at a children's clinic. So I hurried to get my portion of the opening done and left work early, drove home, woke little man and Duck up, got them dressed and rushed to make our appt. When we got there they told us that they wouldn't see him unless we physically had our insurance card. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? How absurd! My son is sick and needs medical attention, they are a doctor's office, and they REFUSED to treat him over a medical insurance card! I am appalled. We were forced to leave and I just burst into tears. We came home and called his old pediatrician in Lebtucky and I was describing the symptoms and they told me to take him to the ER right away. So that is what we did. We were there for about 2.5 hours and it turns out that he has a terrible sore throat and is being treated for croup. I am horrified that a doctor's office would put more importance in an insurance card than a childs life. What if he had a sever respiratory infection and we just went home until we got his insurance cards? Needless to say I am going to being writing a strongly worded letter to the doctor's office. Duck made a very good comment today, "It seems like we stepped out of reality, and into the Twilight Zone!"
Last night I was speaking with a friend who brought up a point, it seems like I really miss my old home and all my friends. Well I do miss my friends and I do miss my previous job, but I don't miss my home or the fear that came with it. I don't expect anyone to understand, but I feel what I feel, no more and no less. It is different from me up here, I don't have a "support group" of friends close, I haven't really meet anyone that I would even want to consider a friend. People are so different here, they are into drinking heavily, drugs, holier than thou attitude, on the other hand think that everyone should hand everything to them on a silver platter. I never thought that this place would be so different than where we where, it's just something that we need to get used to for now, not forever. I don't plan on living in Indiana for ever.
I hope that no one ever has to go through what I went through last night and today, even though I know it happens all the time.
God Bless, Katybug
By the way, if anything is amok in this letter or my grammer is off, please don't mind it, I'm sure that you can figure it out. By the way, it has been nearly 5 days since I have had a decent night sleep, more than 5 hours without being woke up.