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March 08, 2007 The mistake
Today we went to pick up the last two months worth of pay information from my previous employer. We were bearly down the road when I discovered that the records were very wrong. I didn't work but 4 hours in November since we were very sick and I was on bed rest for nearly 3 weeks. The records from Oct had been put on Nov business with the same check numbers. I do hope that I am able to play it off as it should be. The problem is that we have filed taxes and already rec'd our returns. They are going to have to contact their CPA and find out what they will need to do. Of course if they want to pay me the money, I'd take it, but I DON'T expect it as I didn't actually earn it. It was nice to see my boss again.
I'm starting to feel myself slip again, I think that I may need to go and see my doctor. I don't think I can control this much longer. Don't think that I'm going to do anything stupid, that just isn't my style, I just don't have the motivation to do anything and I feel the fear starting to rise, not to mention the feeling of failure yet again. It's hard to explain. I don't feel like doing anything but watching TV, and playing with Sunshine. I'm neglecting my house work and my husband. Today the house looks better because I was able to stay awake while the boys took a nap and got a lot of cleaning done in a short period of time. I just need to get more done, and keep it done. Duck and I haven't spent any alone time together in a long time. With his hours it is difficult, not to mention a nursing infant. I found out that my mother is trying to find us. She is using the stupid ploy that she wants to send Sunshine a present for his birthday. What does she think I'm stupid... I know that she could hire a private dick to find me, but then that may cut into her drug money. I don't want her to find me, she just wants to cause grief or trouble. I am not going to have to take steps incase she does find us. She and her husband are as unstable and walking on water. You know, she passed Sunshine and I in Wally world one day and she didn't even stop, her chance to meet her grandson and she dismissed him. She tells everyone that I'm not her daughter, well that means my boys are no relation to her. Why can't she understand that I don't want her in my life nor do I want to be part of hers. If anyone has been following a portion of the Anna Nicole Smith thing, you would know what I mean when I say that we lead similar lives as far as mother and daughter. I WANT HER TO LEAVE ME ALONE AND NEVER CONTACT ME AGAIN. She was a terrible mother and has instilled insecurities in me. I feel like I have to be everything and everywhere with my kids because she was never with us, or not nearly as much as a semi-loving mother should be. I know that she is the only mother that I have, but to tell you the truth, I'd rather be an orphan. I'd rather forget her and my life before 18. I am also feeling failure, I feel like I am failing a friend that I haven't been able to get with and exercise, I feel like I am failing myself because I'm not taking care of myself to get into shape and lead a healthier life and I feel like I'm failing my husband for looking like this. I am going to get my dress out and hang it up in the livingroom so I look at it and remind myself that I need to exercise.
Wow, getting this off my chest is helpful, I need to look at it and change what I can, and get help where I can't. You know, God grant me the serenity.....
Smiley is getting big fast. He is not blowing raspberries when prompted, he is smiling at himself in the mirror and at his brother anytime he can see him. He is following things, reaching out and touching, lifting his head while on his tummy, trying to push off, putting things in his mouth, talking up a storm, laughing, and doing and almost joyous scream. He is also cutting his first tooth.
By the way, I was talking to my dad tonight and it is important that everyone know that if anything happens to Duck and I that the kids are to go to him. This is going to be put into a will ASAP. My mother is absolutely not allow to have my children and that means PERIOD. I don't want her to ever take my children for a drive, not even to Dairy Queen for a cone. She will not return with them.
Okay I need to get into the livingroom and make sure Sunshine is laying down and nurse Smiley so he can go to sleep..he is off his routine, I think that his teeth are really hurting him since he is sucking on anything he can get into his mouth. I will be talking to his DT tomorrow to see what she may suggest and maybe calling his doctor. I was never allowed to give Sunshine Orajel unless it was absolutely necessary and it only came down to that once.
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Friday March 9, 2007 - 12:46am (EST) Edit Delete Permanent Link 1 Comment
March 07, 2007 More IF
Well we went and picked up the parts for the car, please keep your fingers crossed, Duck is putting them in right now. We also found out that there is another problem with the washer. It is shaking too much. Duck thought that I just had it off balance, but it can't go through 4 loads and be off balance like that every single time. I'm very careful when I put the clothes in to make sure that they are balanced, I don't want to have to pull up wet clothes to balance them during the spin cycles. He'll look at it tonight. I also got some diaper covers on Ebay from Baby Best Buy they are Dappi and really nice. Plus I saved 8 dollars.
Okay...more if questions>
If you could have one person from history live his or her full life over again, starting now, who would you pick? -- Hum...that's a tough one, I think I would like to know Einstein. He was so talented and very smart.
If you could have personally witnessed one event in history, what would you want to have seen? -- the signing of the Constitution. Then maybe I would have more answers to the boggling questions that I have concerning some of the laws set forth.
If one of you parents was to be a famous person from anytime in history, who would you want them to be? Oh----um.....Mother Teresa, although I wouldn't be here, she is 100% the opposite of my mother...or maybe Betsy Ross, then maybe I would know how to sew and she could've been my mother.
If you could receive one small package this very moment, who would it be from and what would be in it? Duh...from the Hoosier Lottery, the winning lottery ticket to tonight's game. I would then open the shelter that I have always wanted to do.
If you could own one painting from any collection in the world but were not allowed to sell it, which work of art would you select? I would select the JFK painting that is in the White House, I have always enjoyed seeing it in the movies, and hope one day to be able to see it in person. But I don't think that will happen since I am afraid to go to DC.
If you could have chose your own first name, other than your current on, what would it be? Julia..it is such a grown up and dignified name, much better than Katy.
If you could have seduced one person that you knew in your lifetime (but didn't), who would you select? Oh, this could get me into trouble. My first heart doctor Dr. Hall. He was hot and a doctor.
If you were instantly able to play one musical instrument perfectly that you never have played before, what would it be? Well, this is sorta an unfair question to me...I've played so many different instruments...now if they are talking about just fiddling around, I've never set my hands on a french horn, I'd love to play that, it is such a beautiful instrument. If they are talking about actually playing to sheet music and not including ones that I officially never played, I'd like to play the piano.
If you were to be stranded forever on a tropical island with one platonic friend only, in whose company would you want to spend the rest of your days? Well, I'd have to pick K. She is just so sufficient at the lay of the land. I think I would actually learn a lot and eat, where as if I were by myself, I'd die in less than a month.
If you had to live the rest of your life in a place that you have never lived in before, where would you live? Colorado!!!
If you could keep only one article of clothing you currently own and the rest were to be thrown out, what would you keep? -- My blue Mickey Mouse Germany Night Gown. It's huge and comfy.
If you had to lose one of your five senses, which would you give up? My taste, that way I could eat things like celery and stuff that would make me eat healthier and skinnier.
If you were to have one famous person alive or from history stranded with you on an island forevermore, who would you want it to be? -- I think I would choose Tom Hanks, did you see him in Cast Away??
If you could kill the pet of anybody you know, whose pet would it be? Hey all books can't be perfect, I wouldn't kill anyone's pets.
If you were to be recognized by posterity for one thing, what would you like it to be known for? I'll have to get back to you on this one....baby's up and I need to tend to him.
Katy
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Wednesday March 7, 2007 - 01:44pm (EST) Edit Delete Permanent Link 2 Comments
March 07, 2007 Early in the morning for some
I still have not gone to sleep. Smiley woke up and refused to go back to sleep, I read to him, played with him and finally broke down and let him watch a little tv. He refused the nurse in between, and I had already changed him. After about 5 or so minutes I tried to nurse him again, and he went off to sleep. I swaped and put another load into my now working washer , I'll fold in the morning. I put the dishes in the dishwasher and wiped down the sink and counters. I'll declutter and do the floors tomorrow as well. The floors mainly have cat food on them because Sunshine always seems to spill a little when he feeds the cat. He does his chore very well, and we are working on cleaning up the food that spilled out. Usually the cat is in the way though. Speaking of the cat, he is healing nicely, he has two big wounds on his shoulder and one is still oozing a little, but nothing that I am at all worried about. He has lost the hair in that area and the abscess is completely gone. My seeds have already sprouted, I don't know what I am going to do, I guess I will have to transplant them into regular pots until it is time to plant them into the ground. I will also start my carrot and corn soon as I have more egg cartons already. Duck said that he thinks he can fix the tiller and then we won't have to rent one. That would be nice, and then our friends could use it if they needed it as well. Tomorrow or should I say today the boys and I are going to K's house to see Bobby-que. I haven't seen the blessed pig since he was at my dad's house. And I say he was blessed because I think that Duck wanted to throw him on the highway since he pooped in the cage and it stuck something awful. But that's a pig for you. Well Duck should be home any minute now, so I am going to go, the boys are in bed and it will be nice to spend a few minutes with him before either one wakes up or it gets too late. I am very tired. Good night to all!
Me.
Okay so duh, he has to take a shower first, here are some "IF" questions....
If you were to have your entire wardrobe designed for you by a single clothing designer for the rest of your life, who would you select? Jacklyn Smith. I think that her taste is great, she has something for every occasion, and though I'm sure she is rich, she isn't only selling her clothes in the mall where most sane people refuse to buy because of the paycheck price tags.
If you were to be stranded forever on a desert island and could only have one book to read, which would you want? The bible, maybe then I make the time to sit down and read it. I've been told that you can read it several times through out your life and get different means/understanding because of different experiences that you encounter.
If you could say one sentence to the current pope, what would it be? BIRTH CONTROL Enough said??? okay well the baby woke up, more tomorrow.
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Wednesday March 7, 2007 - 12:49am (EST) Edit Delete Permanent Link 0 Comments
March 06, 2007 Ka-su-rah!!!
The washer is fixed. I can't believe how talented one person can be. My hubby is the best! (sorry I don't mean to rub it in anyone's face, I'm sure that every wife feels just as I feel about my husband, or at least I hope so!) He has saved us nearly $500.00 of our tax check by not having to buy a stove or a washer. The wrong parts were ordered for the car though, and we will have to wait until tomorrow.
Sunshine pottied on the potty the other night. He started to have an accident in the dining room (yes I cleaned the carpet) so I ran him into the bathroom and he peed on the potty!!! He woke up dry again today, we are on a roll her. We are working on potty training, we can save about $50.00 per month on that alone. I will still put him to bed with underware on and then a pull up over the underware incase of an accident. I'm very very very happy.
Okay maybe more later, I'm going to eat part of my 3 batches of banana bread that I made yesterday...oh and by the way...Peanut Butter Bread doesn't work with the A-Z recipe that I have. It was a bad outcome, but that theory is put to bed.
Me.
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Tuesday March 6, 2007 - 02:33pm (EST) Edit Delete Permanent Link 0 Comments
March 05, 2007 Motivation
I've been having a huge problem finding motivation lately. I've been sorta down, but I'm feeling a lot better. Today we found a place to buy the parts for my car that is cheaper than the first. The first place was still out and the factory is backed up on them. So we are going to pick them up tomorrow. I pray, pray, pray that this is the solution to the problem. Duck fixed my stove the day before yesterday and we had warm Cinnamon rolls as a reward. IT was wonderful! Now, we have to fix the washer, Duck is pretty sure that it is just the same part that broke last time. So, we ordered it and it should be here tomorrow before noon. Sunshine has a DT and ST appt tomorrow, so I will be very busy. I need to remember to send LLL info to Smiley's DT person. I feel better, and I am very motivated today to get things done. I'm still very tired, but I think that will pass. I am going to start a list of things that need to get done, and my goal is to get at least 2 of them done a week. One side will be things that I want to get done, that I can do personally, and the other will be things that Duck will need to do as I do not know how to do them. Maybe he can show me how to do some of them so I won't be so "girly". At least I know how to change a tire in 40ish degree weather in the dark.
Saturday, I am making lunch or dinner for a friend for her birthday. I'm thinking about making a beef stew that I saw on Kraft foods. It is YUMMY looking and I am going to make a lot since I know that we love beef stew.
Ha ha, there is the picture...
Well Smiley is rustling around, I need to go, I also have to finish cleaning and clean the carpets. I also want to make about 5 loaves of bread tonight so I can get the done and keep the house warmer and smell the wonderful smell. I also have to defrost the freezer in the kitchen. Okay, I promise that I will try to start the if questions again, I love them!
Maybe more later....Katy